Today I went out and applied for some new jobs. It felt like a relief and I felt peace about it. It is time for me to move on and away from my aunt. I feel like I’m moving in a positive direction. I’ve been dealing with grief over the loss of my godfather and pets. Especially around this time of year the monsters from the past seem to creep up. But, I am having good memories too. I am trying to not dwell on the negative. I told my grandma that I was thinking about quitting working for my aunt. She said “we are barely getting by as it is! And I said what’s more important money or my physical, mental, and emotional well being? She said “i guess that is true, but it might take you a long time to find another job and at least you working for her gives you enough money to buy your own groceries.” I think she was purposely trying to make me feel guilty and guilt trip me into staying working for my aunt. Guiltier then I already feel for wanting to leave. But, at the same time I really do feel like I have to do what’s best for me and I know staying in this environment is not what’s best for me. I’ve been reading the Celestine prophesy and today I read that when people are getting into your head and stealing your energy and I think that is what my aunt does to me which, is why I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to be around her. I just don’t feel as productive. I’ve been reading the passion test and the secret and it says to focus on the positive aspects of a person. I do admire my aunt for being a business woman and creating her own business and taking those risks. I hope to one day start my own business as well. My godfathers mother has breast cancer. They gave her a lump ectamy and she will be getting radiation but she is like a grandma to me so I’m still worried about her health. But, it seems like she will pull through.

I sent an article to the newspaper and it got published by the editor offered me a job to write and have my own column. I happily accepted. I took the constitution and GED test and passed. I am now in college and taking classes. I got my degree in journalism and music and graduated with honors. I wrote my novels and memoir which got published and all became bestsellers. I sold millions of copies! I worked on my album and worked with Madonna and Pink and and Kelly Clarkson. I made a chart topping CD. I sold my songs for millions of dollars!

Taken from the circle and the secret. About acting as if it’s already happened! Hopefully I will be writing this for real sometime in the near future!