I work in Barrington and I love it. It’s kind of like hollywood. Everyone walks around in designer clothes and fake tans and louie vutton bags and talk about botox. But, it’s so much fun I love those people and I love being around them. I would move there if I could afford to. Today I met this couple that have been married for 65 years and that’s what I want. I thought I had that but I guess not. But, I know I’ll find it one day I hope. I’m exhausted from working all day and then I went for 2 walks and I went to the store 2 times. I feel like I’ve done everything twice today it’s so strange. lol. I’m a little tipsy too It’s kind of ironic but when I was with my ex I acted all sweet and supportive and loving pretty much always and I hardley never drank or partied and I listened to rock music once in a while now I drink and party a lot and listen to hard rock all the time. I guess I felt like I had to pretend because if I did’t he would leave me ironically he left me anyway so now I’m being myself and just having fun not caring about him or anyone else and living my life but ironically the woman I am is the kind of women that he likes. It’s funny how things work out like that I guess. I’m excited cause I have tommorrow and saturday off but sunday I’m working in st. charles.I’m working all day tommorrow and so I’m going to be really quite busy again. I’m worried about my ex right now too. I’m listening to lindsay rush’s song a little bit because that’s the way that I feel right now.