i really wanted to go but then I realized I just have way too many things to do in september. I’m going to be working and getting my hair done helping plan my uncles birthday party and going to that. I also don’t have the money to buy the tickets right now I need to save up to get my hair done it’s going to be expensive but I haven’t had my hair done for two years so it’s about time I get that done again. I really need a change and I really want to look nice. Plus, I need to save up for the lithium batteries for the digital camera get my other film developed and buy black and white film which is more expensive then regular film. So I am dissipointed but I still want to try to go to the she wants revenge concert in october. I was going to go to this party tonight but now I don’t think I will because I know if I go I’m going to want to drink and probably get wasted then I’ll come home and drink some more because that’s what I always do and then I’ll go to work tommorrow hungover and that would not be good. Although I really want a drink and I really want to party but I think I should restrain but drinking and partying tonight. I have to work tommorrow again but at least it’s only half a day this time. I have a really bad headache though right now and I think I need to get some sleep. I just want to forget about what a lousy night it was. I’m listening to irreplaceable by beyonce cause I know he is replaceable. And that one day he will be replaced and my heart will no longer belong to him but to someone else. someone who actually deserves it.

Is anyone going to the hinder concert september 8th. I really want to go. But, I have a million things to do this month so I don’t know if I can make it or not. But, I’m just wondering if anyone else was planning on going?

I’m really tired right now I was up all night creating profiels for other sights. I think that’s what loneliness does. Then I delted some because I felt like they were not safe and too many people where looking at my stuff. I have to go to bed very soon though I have to work all day again tommorrow which I hate I don’t want to. I want to just stay home and sleep all day. It’s nights like these when I really miss my ex. I miss how he used to come over late at night and we would stay up and talk all night. I’m feeling like I could cry right about now. I’m going through stages. Sometimes I’m in denial and I go to pick up the phone and call him and then I realize that I can’t sometimes I’m angry at him and trying to understand why he broke up with me and why he was so cruel to me when he never was before and sometimes like tonight I’m depressed and even after everything I still want him back. Other times I feel like I’m moving on and getting over it and I could do without him just fine but sometimes I just want him back and now is one of those times. I’m good tonight just tired from the weekend. It’s still the weekend but I’m exhausted already. I wish hinder was on reverbnation. I’m listening to feist 123 right now.

Kittie is coming to mokena IL at the pearl room september 13th. I really want to go and I told my ex about it before we broke up because I wanted to go with him. But, now that’s not gonna happen. I still want to go though. I was just wondering who else was gonna go?

I wanna get my hair done like victoria beckham aka posh spice only the way she has it now with platinum blonde.

I am excited about possibly going to the concert and that I hopefully get to talk to my cute neighbor tommorrow.