This is my REAL blog this is ME

I’m posting this because I met this girl. I know it might seem odd to feel so connected to a stranger. But I really did. She put the lord first and that is something that is so important. I think to have that sort of faith. She really changed my life. It’s amazing how one person can really make your eyes wide open. So this is what happend the day I met my angel…

This girl walked in the store looking for stuff from the fifties for her sister’s birthday. She came over to me and said “don’t you get bored here all day alone? I said “yes” She said “do you have any bored games I’d play with you? “No.” I said. “I like your tattoo it is real? I asked. “No but I wish it was she said. Can you tell what it is? I look at it. I think I know but I’m too scared to say anything I say “I’m not sure.” She says “sure you can.” Making me feel like I can do anything and know everything. “It’s an m she says.” I thought so I say, is that a d? “No it’s a 5 everyone thinks it’s a d she says. It is my 5 favorite loves.” I remember the first and last. The first the lord I admire that not many people put the lord first but here was this lively girl who loved life and the lord. I was awe inspired by her kind of star struck in a way. The last “my love” is all she said. I think she asked me if there was anywhere I spent time so we could spend it together I freeze up like the shy girl I can be at the worst of times. I can’t think I say no. I feel so guilty maybe I missed my chance to be friends with this lovely girl. She’s about to walk out she has to be off to other things I think and say to myself I cant let her go I need to try something I shock myself and say “wait, this might sound strange but do you have an e-mail? She says “no it’s a waste of time she likes to go out and experience life just a fake e-mail that’s all.” Off she goes out the door only leaving a “Have a beautiful day my love.” She is gone and I feel bad I should have given her my number. I need this positive girl this god loving girl back in my life. I miss this stranger I only knew briefly. But she is gone and doesn’t return. I wonder if I’ll ever see her again. I hope so. So I will say to you have a beautiful day my loves.

I work in Barrington and I love it. It’s kind of like hollywood. Everyone walks around in designer clothes and fake tans and louie vutton bags and talk about botox. But, it’s so much fun I love those people and I love being around them. I would move there if I could afford to. Today I met this couple that have been married for 65 years and that’s what I want. I thought I had that but I guess not. But, I know I’ll find it one day I hope. I’m exhausted from working all day and then I went for 2 walks and I went to the store 2 times. I feel like I’ve done everything twice today it’s so strange. lol. I’m a little tipsy too It’s kind of ironic but when I was with my ex I acted all sweet and supportive and loving pretty much always and I hardley never drank or partied and I listened to rock music once in a while now I drink and party a lot and listen to hard rock all the time. I guess I felt like I had to pretend because if I did’t he would leave me ironically he left me anyway so now I’m being myself and just having fun not caring about him or anyone else and living my life but ironically the woman I am is the kind of women that he likes. It’s funny how things work out like that I guess. I’m excited cause I have tommorrow and saturday off but sunday I’m working in st. charles.I’m working all day tommorrow and so I’m going to be really quite busy again. I’m worried about my ex right now too. I’m listening to lindsay rush’s song a little bit because that’s the way that I feel right now.