I have had a hectic couple of days. I pulled a neck muscle and am in a lot of pain from that. I spent the two days in bed because I could barely move my neck. I didn’t go to work I was going to but then my mom convinced me it was not a brilliant idea. Considering I don’t want to hurt myself worse. I am worried my aunt will fire me but then another part of me is like that might actually not be a bad thing. I know she will probably be pissed at me. But, I’m trying to take care of myself. Which, is not the easiest thing for me to do. I got a letter from my boyfriend and we are back to the whole girl situation again. He said they where just friends and she made a call to some of his other friends as soon as he asked. I don’t get why he feels the need to throw it in my face all the time. But, instead of reacting I’m going to just try to let it go. I’m also pissed he is not paroling here but feel that is not something he really wanted in the first place so maybe it’s for the best after all. He also said he would not be going to church with me and if I did make friends from church would have nothing to do with them which is the same way I feel about his friends.
My eating has been all over the place again. I feel like I’ve gained weight. I have been bed ridden for the past two days because of my back and neck. I feel like I’m in my own prison right now if that makes any sense.