I just finished reading this book after reading the Celestine prophesy. I find so many points that I can relate to. I hope you check this book out if you are interested in spiritual truths. Here are just a few examples of what I related to:

“At some point, we have been participating in a group listening intently but when we feel a burst of energy as we received an idea, an insight or point of clarity for the topic at hand. There is a pause as the energy shifts our way, but instead of speaking up, we hesitate.”

This is what happened to me the other day I was in a group setting and it got silent. I was too shy and scared to speak up and then someone else spoke up. After that I was not able to get a word in. So if I had taken the chance at the beginning I would have been able to speak what was on my mind. That was a lesson for me.

“Often one of the fastest ways of regaining our inner divine connection when we feel separated it to uplift someone else.”

I find this to be so true. whenever I am down there is nothing better then extending a hand to someone else and letting them know how much I appreciate them. It’s amazing just what a hug or handshake and a few kind words can really do to lift someone’s spirits. I know that means the world to me. It makes me feel loved and appreciated.

“A coincidental crossing of paths can occur at any time, but usually won’t happen unless we are willing to take the initiative ourselves.”

I had this experience yesterday when I ran into a friend randomly. But, I said something and then she gave me a hug and said we should get together for lunch.

“We will find that most synchronicity comes to us via truths of other human beings.”

I think this is so true. That’s why I like to blog and write because hopefully something I say will help and make a difference for or to someone else. That’s also why I created spiritual cafe. For sharing spiritual wisdom which you can find at www.faithhopegrace.ning.com

“If we are open and alert, someone will show up with a timely truth we need to hear. The key to receiving the information is never fail to explore these encounters, taking, of course responsible precautions for safety.”

I find that is so true. Sometimes when I’m having a bad day or something else is going on in my life someone will say something to me or I’ll read something and have a complete “Aha” Moment.

“love ends and evolves into a power struggle because we begin to depend on energy from each other, rather then from our own inner connection with the divine.”

I have to agree completely with him on this. It seems like relationships struggle when we try to get things from other people. Love, attention, or whatever. But, when I put the focus back on myself and my higher power things just seem to work out the way they are supposed to and everything turns out for the best. In love and friend relationships. We have to rely on god to supply us our needs instead of another human being who can’t be perfect. Just as we are not perfect.

“The more love and energy we give, the more rapidly the synchronistic messages come to us, and the more creative, effective, and inspiring will be our individual lives.”

“Once enough of us understand how tithing works and experientially prove that the principle of tithing works, we will embrace this process fully, synchronically giving a percentage of our income to the sources we feel urged to support. In the same way, opportunities and finances will come right back to us, quite magically, congruent with our expectation.”

“The near death phenomenon confirms that there is only one divine force in the universe, and this force is positive.”

“The fact is, life here on earth is all about becoming more aware of our spiritual nature.”

“Step by step we are becoming more aware that we are spiritual beings slowly evolving a spiritual reality on this planet.”

I read a thousand names for joy by Byron Katie. I’ve always wanted to read her work but never did until now. I have to say I found it fascinating. I also did the work which besides in the book you can find the work at www.thework.com It really is amazing and very helpful. I felt like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I am not worrying about what others say or think or believe because that is there reality not mine.

“inquiry helps the suffering mind move out of it’s arguments with reality. It helps us move into alignment with constant change. After all the change is happening it seems. But, when we’re attached to our thoughts about how the change should look, being out of control feels uncomfortable. Through inquiry we enter the area we do have control: or thinking.” – Byron Katie from the Book

“When there is no choice, there is no fear. They begin to realize that nothing was ever born but a dream and nothing ever dies but a dream.” Katie Byron from the book

“Dying is just like living. It has it’s own way and you can’t control it.” Byron Katie

“We die at exactly the right time not an instant too soon or too late.” Byron Katie

“What I know is that God is everything and God is good.” Byron Katie

“It’s the truth that sets you free and the truth we’re talking about is not someone else’s truth; it’s your own. That’s the only truth that can set you free.” Byron Katie

“God is everything, God is good is not an idea it’s a reality.” Byron Katie

I woke up last night with a pit in my stomach. That has been happening to me a lot lately. But, instead of fretting about it I just spent time with God and went back to sleep. I felt a sense of peace come over me. Then yesterday as I was going to pick up my lunch I decided to go into a local bookstore. I ran into a friend of mine who was not even supposed to be working yesterday. She gave me a big hug and I felt such love, peace, and positive energy radiating from her. I could not help but smile. We chatted briefly as we both had to get back to work. The funny thing is that I did not even know she worked there and she was not supposed to be working but happened to be filling in for someone else. We are going to have lunch sometime next week and I am so excited and grateful to get to spend more time with her.

I seemed to be getting along with the customers. I usually do but I felt a sense of peace and a connection towards them. I felt like a weight has been lifted off of me and it is giving me more peace and positive energy. Then on the way home from work my aunt started giving me a hard time. Which, was not surprising to me. but, this time something flew in the car window and hit her on the back of the head. I told her I thought it was the seat head rest that was loose but she is adamant it is a rock. She is ok thank goodness but after that she left me alone. I think it was something supernatural or spiritual getting tired of her mistreating me.

Today I went to church and one of the attendee came out and said she has been wanting to meet me for so long. And she knew my name. It was great to feel so welcomed like that and that people know who I am and like me. Today I am also going to get a new hairstyle. Something a bit radical then I’m used to. But, it’s time for a change and I feel like I’m turning over a new leaf in my life.

also I’ve created some social networking sites. I know there are tons already out there. But, I would love it if you checked mine out. I worked hard on them and they are different from some other ones. I’ve created Friend Share. Sort of like a my space or face book. But, you can blog, chat, or anything, Meet new people or invite friends. It’s a baby site so it’s not very big but I would love it to grow and expand. All are welcome. You can find and register for this site at www.friendmatch.ning.com

Then I created coffee talk women: Real blogging for real women. You can blog chat with other females about anything on your mind. I’ve created some discussions you can join in or create your own. It’s basically just about women feeling free to be themselves and opening up and sharing in a community with other women. Like when you get together with a friend over coffee or tea and talk about what is going on in your life. You can check this site out at www.coffeetalkwomen.ning.com

Next I created spiritual cafe. For all things spiritual. You can be any religion or no religion. It’s just about people getting together and exploring our spirituality and talking about topics related to spirituality. It’s about finding your inner self and sharing your truth with others. I believe we learn great truths from other people and I wanted to create a community that really reflected that. You can find spiritual cafe at www.faithhopegrace.ning.com

I created inspiring women for women to share there stories and anything that has inspired them. This can be a book, movie, or anything else. It’s also for connecting to other women that are inspiring and gain encouragement for whatever is going on in our lives. You can find this site at www.inspiringwomen2.ning.com

Last but not least is womenhood: A get together for women from all walks of life. You can share on work, career, family, mommyhood, marriage, dating, or anything else on your mind. You can check out this site at www.womenhood.ning.com

Feel free to take a look and join all or one site. I would love for you to become a part of my networks and communities. I look forward to hearing from you.

No matter what your career or future goals and dreams I highly recommend this book. It gave me so many insights into work and career and how to get ahead so to speak. There are some things I really gained from it and found to be very inspiring to me. Here are some of the examples from the book:

“Though I have dreams and walk in my life purpose, there is no way to possibly grasp the breadth and Depth of what I am becoming.”

I feel like with every step I take I am getting closer to my dreams and goals. – Me

“I believe that God is in charge of everything and that his greater plans will ultimately prevail. In fact, one of the gifts That belief affords me is the realization of life’s little twists and turns, trials and errors, are truly some of the best gifts though I could not choose them for myself, later on I am grateful for each of them.” -the book

That is the way I feel. Like when my basement flooded and even though it was terrible. I made a choice to then go on and move to a different room which, I know I probably would not have done otherwise and now I believe it’s all working out for the best.- Me

“More grows in the garden than the gardener knows he has sown.” -Spanish Proverb

It’s amazing how we can touch other people. Just today I got an email from someone saying that what I had written really encouraged her and those where the words she needed to hear at that moment. I imagine the people I can touch and help and not even realize all the good I do in this world. I am glad to be a blessing to others and I know others are a blessing to me as well.- Me

“You are the only person on earth who can use your ability” – Zig zigler

I am so touched to have my abilities. I am not saying I’m great but I’m slowly figuring out myself and what I’m good at. I want to use the talents I’ve been blessed with mainly to help other people and let others know they are not alone. – Me

“We should instead look for moments of exchange with people who offer nuggets of wisdom that we can apply. I have found this concept to work brilliantly in a variety of ways. Not only so I seek these moments with a variety of people. But, I am find I’m mentor via articles, books I read, and by leaders I observe and admire from a distance, sometimes even through conversations I overhear in a bus or on the train. All of these sources Briefly mentor me in ways I want and need for my personal life and career.” -The book

I find that I can get so much inspiration and encouragement from other people. When we take the time to focus on others and get out of our own heads it’s amazing how much we can learn. That’s why I love listening. But, I write because I know that helps people and I talk when I think I have something someone can glean from me.-me

“A few simple changes in your daily routine can improve the quality of your life. from now on when you read a book, make the author your mentor and always read with a pen in your hand. As you get used to reading with a pen in hand, you begin to cultivate the habit of taking notes of things you actually think, in addition to what you thought you read. We must learn to read, But only to get our own minds in motion and start our thought process.”-Charlie Jones

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience and trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened and success achieved.” -Helen Keller

“Do what you need to do to get out of what you don’t like. If you stay too long, you get disillusioned and it negatively impacts your work. That really ends up hurting you not the company or the position. But you do what you need to do in your current role, but aggressively look outside that role for other opportunities.” -The book

I finished reading this book last week. It is about all these insights we get from life, others, and our higher power. I found it to be really interesting. Some points I found to be interesting where when they say when others are negative or have an attitude towards us they are trying to steal our energy. I found this to be really interesting. I also found it to be interesting when the book was talking about relationships and why we relate to some people and have a connection with them but not others. Also it inspired me to start going to groups and to connect with new people. I also called my friend who I thought was getting married and did not invite me but it turns out the relationship did not last. So I’m sorry for my friend but I’m glad to know she was not blowing me off. Also they say every experience is a lesson or has some wisdom to glean from it. I think that’s why my whole flooding situation worked out for the best and getting sick. Although I’m not sure the exact purpose for these things but I know there must be some lesson or reason underneath it all.

I haven’t written in a week. But, don’t worry I am still writing and will continue to be on here. It has just been a crazy week. This is the anniversary of when my godfather passed away 4 years ago. So this past week has been very hard on me. Plus, I was working like crazy. Then on Friday my basement flooded and at least not too much got ruined. But, I decided I would move upstairs because it’s too hectic worrying about the floods all the time. But, it took me all day Sunday and part of yesterday but I am 99% done. I just have to work out the clothing situation and get my TV hooked up and in the room. But, otherwise it’s basically done. Early yesterday I got so sick. I felt a burning in my chest and throat which is gone now because it was really scary. But, I am still not feeling very well. So I decided to just rest and take it easy today. Plus, I don’t think the extreme heat is helping any. But, I know everything is working out for the best and I am very happy with my new room and the cats are enjoying it too.

Lucky chillin on the bed

I’ve been wanting to see this movie for ages. Since it first came out in the theater but I missed it. I thought it was a very cute funny movie. It was predictable but I still enjoyed it. I love chick flicks anyway. I thought the acting was great. It definitely had a lot of great actors and actresses in it. It’s worth it to watch just to see all of them in one movie. I could relate to the character played by Jennifer Aniston and her boyfriend in the movie played by Ben affleck reminded me of my boyfriend and our relationship. It is a relatable movie and there is at least one character in there you can relate to. I’ve been with my man for 8 years and we’ve been engaged for three. Sometimes it does feel like a slow process but really it’s all been for the best. I know it will happen when the time is right and even if we never got married I think I would be happy with that anyway. But, it would be icing on the cake to be husband and wife. I also do think it’s true about that calling thing. Because my guy called me the day I gave him my number. Needless to say I was shocked but pleasantly surprised

I realize I’ve been in a self pity mode lately. That is not the place I want to be in. So I am going to try to think more positive. I also need to help build up my self esteem. I’ve been hearing a lot lately about loving oneself. That is something I’m currently working on doing. I don’t think I have all the answers and for a long time I have been down on myself. Now it is not about trying to be perfect because that is impossible but it’s about loving me for me.

I went to church today and at the end of the service the man behind me farted. I did not laugh or say anything because in the moment it was inappropriate. But, I have to admit I did chuckle after we left the service. I am not judging the man because we all have bodily functions and he was older. But, I have to say it was a funny moment and it put a smile on my face. Who would have thought something like that would have happened? My mom gave me some food for thought today. The sermon was about how where God is there can be no evil and we just have to have faith. I admit I don’t think my faith has been as strong as it could be lately and I realize I’ve been letting things get to me more then I should. In the sermon some scriptures jumped out at me that relate to what I’m going through and gave me courage and some positive food for thought today.

“Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27

“Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all we that hope in the Lord.” Psalm 31:24

Then I randomly opened up my bible and came across this passage. I wonder what it’s trying to tell me?
“It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until late at night anxiously working for food to eat. For God gives rest to his loved ones.” Psalm 127:24

Today I went out and applied for some new jobs. It felt like a relief and I felt peace about it. It is time for me to move on and away from my aunt. I feel like I’m moving in a positive direction. I’ve been dealing with grief over the loss of my godfather and pets. Especially around this time of year the monsters from the past seem to creep up. But, I am having good memories too. I am trying to not dwell on the negative. I told my grandma that I was thinking about quitting working for my aunt. She said “we are barely getting by as it is! And I said what’s more important money or my physical, mental, and emotional well being? She said “i guess that is true, but it might take you a long time to find another job and at least you working for her gives you enough money to buy your own groceries.” I think she was purposely trying to make me feel guilty and guilt trip me into staying working for my aunt. Guiltier then I already feel for wanting to leave. But, at the same time I really do feel like I have to do what’s best for me and I know staying in this environment is not what’s best for me. I’ve been reading the Celestine prophesy and today I read that when people are getting into your head and stealing your energy and I think that is what my aunt does to me which, is why I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to be around her. I just don’t feel as productive. I’ve been reading the passion test and the secret and it says to focus on the positive aspects of a person. I do admire my aunt for being a business woman and creating her own business and taking those risks. I hope to one day start my own business as well. My godfathers mother has breast cancer. They gave her a lump ectamy and she will be getting radiation but she is like a grandma to me so I’m still worried about her health. But, it seems like she will pull through.

The other night I finally mentioned to my mom about me eating disorder. It is under control now and not as bad as it once was. I still tend to overeat when I’m stressed. It was a very dark time in my life and I usually don’t share my experiences but I feel like I should to help others and to let people know they can get through whatever they are currently going through and also to remind myself I can get through what I’m going through right now. It started a few years ago when I was living with my aunt. It was a very depressing time for me because of my aunt’s verbal and emotional abuse. She would fly into these rages and blame me for everything. She still blames me for everything. But, Then she kept saying I was fat and I needed a diet. Granted I was not fat I weighed 135 pounds at 5′4″. But, then She put me on a low carb diet. At this time I felt like I had no control and no say over anything. She controlled what I did, where I went, what I ate. Basically I was a robot living under her roof. She made me scrub the stares on my hands and knees. I cried almost every single day. It was the most depressing time of my life. Then I guess it all just spiraled out of control. The excessive dieting and the abuse. I wanted to take back the control. The only control I had was with food. She controlled what I ate but I did not have to eat it. I hid food and dumped it when it was late at night outside. I stayed up all night exercising. Basically I got down to about 118 pounds. Everyone was complementing me. Then my aunt got mad I was so thin because it reflected badly on her since I was living with her at the time. So she would force me to eat and force food down my throat of course I still had to maintain the control so then came the bulimia. Finally I got out of that cycle and came home to my mom. One day after getting seriously sick for about a month and my aunt would not take me to the doctor because she did not want to pay for it I packed my bags and my mom and godfather came and got me and I went to the hospital. I had an ear infection, a sinus infection, and laryngitis. I seriously could have died if I had not escaped and gone to the doctor. When I got back to my aunt’s she was mad I did not go on the ski trip she payed for. Which was 60 dollars. Even though I had a 103 degree fever. That was the last straw so again I packed all my bags and left for good. By the grace of God I got better. My mom reminded me the other night that I’ve gotten through so much in my life and that I really am a strong person.