In the united states:

1. NY

2. California

3. Las Vegas

4. New orleans

In other countries

1. Paris, France

2. Japan

3. India

4. Ireland

5. south africa

6. Ibiza, spain

7. London, England

I also love Door county WI and I really want to go back up there sometime. I might be goin to super soap weekend in disney world in november but I’m not sure yet.

I am just sittin here chillin. Tommorrow I have to go back to work and I’m not looking forward to that. But, I need the money.

my birthday is not until feb 5th 2008. but, It will be my 21st b-day. There is actually quite a few things I would like to do. 1. Go to El Molinos mexican restraunt I haven\’t been there in ages they are in c-ville aka carpentersville. I want to go with close friends and some family. 2. I want to have a big birthday bash and invite a bunch of people. If I can afford it I will. 3. Go to vegas with a bunch of friends and drink party and maybe go see thunder down under the male strippers. lol. They are pretty hunky. I want to get a camera that\’s really good a proffesional one but not a digital camera I don\’t like digital cameras. I think they are too overroaded and everyone wants stuff fast but I personally don\’t think they take the best pics. I also want a laptop for back to school. I always have to use my moms and that sucks. Because she works from home and is on the computer most of the day so it\’s kind of hard for me to get all my stuff done. I’m drinkin and feelin tipsy I’m about to pass out right now. Nighty night.

Kittie is coming to mokena IL at the pearl room september 13th. I really want to go and I told my ex about it before we broke up because I wanted to go with him. But, now that’s not gonna happen. I still want to go though. I was just wondering who else was gonna go?

I wanna get my hair done like victoria beckham aka posh spice only the way she has it now with platinum blonde.

I am excited about possibly going to the concert and that I hopefully get to talk to my cute neighbor tommorrow.

Today I was exhausted from working all week so it was pretty much a lazy day for me. But, I did go and get my photos developed so I’ll be posting those and possibly changing my profile picture. I was thinking about e-mailing one of my ex’s best friends and asking how he was doing and to keep an eye on him for me but then I figured what’s the point he will probably just tell me to get a life and move on. I revolved my life around my ex and I know I shouldn’t have but I think that’s what makes me the most upset I gave up years of my life devoted to him and his crisis and his problems and his wants and his needs and I never focused on myself or my wants. That might be why my life pretty much spiraled out of control. I spent more time on him then on myself. Now it’s about me and no one else besides my family but I could pack my bags and leave. Which, after we get the basement cleaned up I’m going to do anyway. There was a time when he asked me to move out here to be closer to him and I did then he cried on my shoulder begging me not to leave so I didn’t but then he leaves me. Well, now i’m not attatched to anyone so I will be moving. If me and the guy next store do hit it off and at lease become friends he goes into chicago almost every weekend anyway so it would be fine. I’m on myspace obviously I like it for diffrent reasons I’m also on facebook which I also like for diffrent reasons I
m on xanga which is basically a cool blog and blogger which is a blog but I still post pictures and music and stuff and I just added myself to piczo yesterday which I also really like. So, if anyone is on any of these things let me know and I’ll add you or check out your blog. As for now I have to work all day tommorrow so I’m going to sleep. im on reverbnation a music site friendster bebo tagged and now wordpress and probably more I’m finding all the sites and uploading them all tonight to be done with it once and for all. ha.

I had a dream with you last night. we stayed up all night just like we used to do. I thought when I woke up you would be by my side but you where gone. you belong with me and I belong with you. I was suppossed to be your wife and you where suppossed to be my husband. When I cry all I want is you when I’m happy all I want is you. I just want to reach out and touch you I just wanna tell you what’s going on in my life right now. I just want you hear with me back where you belong together forever. I’m not in denial I know your gone I just don’t know why I know that it hurts my heart and soul. I know one day I’ll find someone else. I know one day it won’t hurt so much. I know one day I’ll move on with my life. For now I’m stuck in the memory of you and I together. For now all I just want is to have you back. I’m trying to kill the pain but nothing is working. No matter what happend I still want you back no matter what I will always love you forever. One day I’ll wake up and I won’t have you on my mind first thing in the morning or the last thing on my mind at night before I go to sleep. One day my heart and soul won’t hurt anymore. one day my heart won’t be broken. I’m drained from workin all weekend. I’m gonna get some dinner and wash my hair and I’ll be back on lata.

Well, I was working all day so I’m really exhausted from that. I got a starbucks rasberry mocha and it was actually pretty good. I met a new girl who works really close to me. We talked for a while and she is really nice and interesting. I really like her and I hope we can become friends. I also e-mailed my uncles neice she is so sweet and I saw a picture of her after not seeing her for years and she looks so grown up and pretty. I am excited to be seeing her again soon. Then I got a caribu coffee peppermint ice tea. It’s good too. I had never been to caribu before but they are actually really good. Tommorrow I’m not working so I’ll probably just sleep in and hang out around the house. I’m still pet sitting though so I will kind of be working. I’m exhausted and mellow I’m passin out now till tommorrow.